continuing to press on

i'm not exactly sure how i have managed to keep going these past few days (probably weeks), but somehow, i have managed to force myself to continue trying to make things happen in spite of not really being motivated. i guess going through the motions is better than nothing. looking back, i have made an amazing amount of progress with my mind not really being focused on what i needed to be doing. i wonder how much more i can get done once my brain actually decides to join me at work. that would be nice!!!

i need a break........so..............i am going to portugal for the weekend. be back monday