here for a reason

it's no coincidence i won my scholarship and was accepted to cambridge. i know i am capable. i just need to get the job done. the anxiety and eagerness i am experiencing lately is primarily because i know i can do the work, however, i have not been able to get started because i am waiting on hardware to come in. there are other things i can be/have been working on in the meantime, but the progress has been hindered due to the fact i have had to focus on so many different things. i feel like i am making excuses now (which is something i ABSOLUTELY cannot stand), so i will stop there in my disgust with myself. *big sigh*