as much as people try and warn you about doing a phd
and how it is a "roller coaster
ride" to the end, there is nothing like experiencing it first-hand. this journey has truly been a test of determination and persistence, and i do not see an end to it until i defend my dissertation. from the sidelines, it's hard to truly understand what a phd
is, let alone, what the hell a phd
in computer science is. no matter the field, it is essentially an "immersion into the unknown." and, one of the first times you really understand this is when you get deep into your research and you find yourself stuck---and you go to someone who is a million times smarter than you for help and their response is 'i dont
know.' that's when it really hits you...YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN. this (my phd
) is my sole responsibility, and i cannot begin to imagine having a family to provide for in the midst of one of these troughs.
as with everything, persistence seems to be the consistent and never-failing solution to coming out on top. somehow, if you just keep at it, things seem to fall into place and you get inspiration and come to solutions/ideas.
in the words of a friend of a friend..."i'm
cool with the exams life hands out, but these damn pop quizzes".....lol
p.s. - my alma mater finally has a new president. i'm not sure how i feel about this cat's name being 'bud'